“deactivate forcefields in 3…2…1”

This morning I officially started my methotrexate treatments. I did have a dose at my rheumatologist’s office last week, diagnosis but today was the first dose that I gave myself at home. While it was a little weird giving myself an injection, health it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, there though I don’t think I got it in quite the right spot. But hey, this was my first time after all.

But now starts the break down of my immune system (as if it wasn’t already totally screwed up, right?). Because methotrexate is an immune system suppressant, it won’t be long before I have little immune system left, which means that it won’t take much for me to get sick. I am not looking forward to that at all! Especially in my line of work where I deal with a good amount of the public on a daily basis. But I’m just going to have to stock up on hand sanitizer and face masks. And if you’re sick, and you try to come visit me at my house, be prepared to be turned away because I don’t want your germs in my house! Just saying! =P

So methotrexate was originally designed as a cancer drug. And in research it was found that in low doses it could help treat some autoimmune diseases like lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, juvenile dermatomyositis, sarcoidosis, psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, and Crohn’s disease. I’m not super excited about some of its side effects though: nausea, fatigue, hair loss, increased risk of infections, fever, low white blood cell count, breakdown of the skin inside of the mouth, severe skin rashes, lymphoma, liver disease, and lung disease. Yikes!! But I’m praying that with such low doses that I won’t be getting too many of those side effects.

One day at a time, though. That is how I am doing my best to take all of this in. The pain, the fatigue, the information, the medication. Because I know that each day will be different, and that there will be good days and bad days and worse days. And I just need to take them in stride.

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